Looking back to my shoulder
A trail of blood
Follows me
It’s not red.
Swirled into black
Plagued with cruelty
Be cautious,
It bites.
Relieved with faults
My mistake
Regrets
The trail is upset
Tremors under my feet
The earth crumbles
Down
I am stuck.
The blood elevates
To swallow
No way to evade
For there’s nobody around
Looking up, the eyes of the past
His hand gripping
My bleeding heart
It yelps.
No mercy, no mercy
A cold shoulder
Reclines my struggle
It hurts.
The blood elevates
To swallow
No way to evade
For there’s nobody around
Black fills my vision.
Gone forever.
Looking back to my shoulder
A trail of blood
Follows me
It’s not red.
Swirled into black
Plagued with cruelty
Be cautious,
It bites.
Relieved with faults
My mistake
Regrets
The trail is upset
Tremors under my feet
The earth crumbles
Down
I am stuck.
The blood elevates
To swallow
No way to evade
For there’s nobody around
Looking up, the eyes of the past
His hand gripping
My bleeding heart
It yelps.
No mercy, no mercy
A cold shoulder
Reclines my struggle
It hurts.
The blood elevates
To swallow
No way to evade
For there’s nobody around
Black fills my vision.
Gone forever.
The Suicide Photographer by Reitanna-Seishin, literature
Literature
The Suicide Photographer
I am a photographer.
People hate my work. You may ask why, but when you see my shots, you'll understand. My work is very controversial. I am sadly proud of my photos, for I may be the only one who's adopted this style.
I capture photos of suicide.
No matter where I go, I carry my camera with me, ready to shoot anything that may happen. There's surprisingly a lot of suicides in this city and the next city over. I've gotten beautiful shots.
The most common ones are those of people jumping from buildings. Of course, there's usually a crowd of people pleading for the person to come down, so I know right away what I am about to get. I stand to
I hate this feeling
of being stuck
of being sick
lovestruck
I hate this feeling
of being trapped
of being caught
up in your lust
I hate this feeling
of weakness
of surrender
despite myself
I hate this feeling
of being helpless
of falling
i'm falling in love
just let me go
Tears stain my bed sheets
A thing you'll never know
I want something I once had
A long long time ago
I never should have treated you,
Like the way I did,
But what can you expect from a broken girl,
Who inside is just a kid
I wish I could say I'm sorry,
And I wish you would care,
But now I know you wont listen,
You'll never ever be there
I wish I could tell you how much I hate,
Myself for doing what I have done
But I cant change the past
And it wont ever be undone
Hours feel like weeks,
And months feel like years,
I let myself become controlling,
So maybe i wouldn't have to face my fears.
But in the end it cost you pain,
M
I'm sorry that I love you,
I'm sorry that I care.
I'm sorry that you've taken for granted,
this beautiful love we share.
I'm sorry for the heartache,
I'm sorry for all the pain.
I'm sorry if you feel you gave,
and I didn't give back the same.
I'm sorry for keeping you waiting,
I'm sorry if I've wasted your time.
I'm sorry you think I'm not worthy,
and you no longer want to be mine.
I'm sorry for misunderstanding,
something that I thought was true.
I'm sorry if you don't understand,
why I do all the things I do.
I'm sorry for all my feelings,
they're obviously not enough.
I'm sorry that you had to let me go,
cause
It was the late afternoon. The unrelenting stress of being nothing more than a bog. Siitting on the bed day and night, only getting up for my necessities such as food and restroom.
It's time to break away from this madness ...
It was stressful enough to break away from an abusive ex-boyfriend. Such a kind to manipulate. To control, and seize your strength down to nothing greater than a grain of sand. Too bad the feelings of care still remain. The memories suddenly have to be flushed away, all lay buried under the dirt decaying slowly until ... There's nothing else.
I head to the front of the gymnasium outside of my former school.